As much as I love everything I'm doing here, the PRRC mental health day-treatment center may be my favorite experience. I'm going to miss this group of guys! We really had some neat interactions, and it was rewarding, (and challenging) group to work with.
My first week was focused on emotional expression and group cohesion. Each group member shared their current emotional state with the group by 'playing their feelings' on a djembe; the group talked about everybody's rhythm, and what it said about how they were feeling. One Veteran said, "I couldn't have done this a year ago. I couldn't have shared how I felt. I have come so far." Then we had a group rhythmic improvisation where I told everyone to play their instrument while trying to ignore or drown out everyone around them. They did it, and hated it. Group members said it was confusing, it didn't sound good, they didn't know what to play. So then we played again, but this time I told them to listen for a 'hole' in the music, and try to fill it. The change in the group was amazing! They listened and waited to come in; as the rhythm increased, they started making eye contact with each other and smiling. When we talked about it afterwards, several group members said that playing from that perspective made the rhythm make sense, and they felt like they knew what to do. For individuals with a mental health diagnosis, isolation is a huge struggle, either because of their symptoms or because of the stigma they experience. But drumming with the group gave them a sense of purpose while interacting socially, and it was beautiful to see.
Another session, we wrote "Coping Skills Blues". After discussing life stressors and positive vs. negative coping strategies, I passed out fill-in-the-blank blues sheets. Each Veteran wrote two verses, one expressing a problem or question they had, and the second expressing an appropriate response or answer. Then everyone had the option of presenting their scenarios to the group by singing their Blues song (and playing a tambourine if they so desired. And they did! Almost every group member sang a solo for the group, improvising their own melody with their words. Even one gentleman who's hands were shaking so badly that the tambourine rattled, sang his verse in front of everyone. It was a huge accomplishment for some of my guys. Afterwards, they were so proud of themselves! Even though it was scary to do, they felt good afterwards. Some of the Veterans even asked if I had extra blank Blues sheets so they could keep writing them.
This Friday was my last session with them, so I asked the group members to share some of their positive experiences from our sessions. Their replies:
"It was really interesting. And, this was the first time I've felt really able to follow along with a group. That was really big for me."
"I have more energy after sessions."
"I've learned a lot about how music can help in my recovery."
"I just liked getting to listen to music, and spend time with my friends."
I think I could write a book with everything I learned, working with this group. I really am sad to leave them! But next week I start working with the substance abuse inpatient program, which will be a whole new set of experiences. I've got about seven weeks left in my internship, and about 7,000 things left to do, haha!
Prayer request: Between the cold Virginia air and the hours and HOURS of typing a week, my elbows haven't felt too friendly lately. Please pray that my elbows last another 2 months, that the pain doesn't interfere with my work, and that I can have the energy to finish well!